the wheat from the chaff - regret

i feel like i've been throwing up too much self-indulgent personal stuff on here. not that anyone's reading. but i am mindful of what i keep to myself and what i put "out there". what to keep and what to throw away. i think of this as needing a bit more form than a diary, so i apologize (to whoever) for the formlessness lately. i really need to pull myself together. focus on specifics. add details, metaphors, concreteness. not just confess anxieties, etc.

having said that, i am still blue. i don't know what to do with myself lately, or what will become of me. i'm trying to meditate and do lots of yoga, and be okay with it. tried out this newfangled thing called grooveshark and pulled up a New Order song that i'm obsessed with. the old and the new. wow. how quickly the world changes. giving up on "embedding" so here's a link to the video.

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=23361997

oh, what the hell:


Regret by New Order

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